I thought about deleting this blog, but I'm not ready to do that yet so, for now, I'll just say good-bye and leave it here for others to stumble upon. It's been fun and I thank each and every one of you for reading and for your comments.
Sometimes we just have to say good-bye and part ways. It's usually when reality slaps us in the face with a truth we never wanted to face. It hurts, but that's life - without the fantasies.
As an aside: You can lie to others and maybe never be found out - but the one person you can't lie to is yourself. Well knowing you, as I have, maybe you can. Oh, and now I know why you didn't want me to publish what I had originally written about the dcsc2 LAN. Like I've said many times before, you're so transparent.
Friday, September 9, 2011
Wednesday, September 7, 2011
America's Got Talent - The Results and Only Four are Left
First, I have to say, I'm amazed that through all those dumb, stupid acts the final 10 displayed talent. I can't imagine getting so close - like one step away from the finals - and going home.
When Smage Bros. were called on stage, along with iLuminate, I was hopeful, even though I knew America voted for iLuminate. I'm not sure where the Smage Bros. will take their motorcycle act, but I'm sure America will hear more of them.
Whilst I enjoy iLuminate's talents, I'll be disappointed if they go all the way. Even though Howie considers them to be the "Second most fun I have in the dark."
I wonder how much influence the judges have on the voting? Last night they weren't thrilled with Miami All Stars, and only Piers raved about Lys Agnes. Neither of them went through and I wonder if the judges' critique had an impact?
Lys stood, tears welled in her eyes, as if she foresaw her forthcoming fate in some crystal ball. She was kicking herself for taking a risk, but shouldn't. Her future doesn't lie in the hands of this show and she will undoubtedly realize a successful career in the industry.
As for Miami All Stars - oh my, ya gotta love 'em. The leader of the pack gave the most exquisite thank you in his Lantino accent that it choked me up a bit.
With only a 1% difference in the votes, Poplyfe and Landon Swank took the stage next. Magicians have never seen the final 10 so, it was unlikely America voted for him, even though he's talented. Poplyfe, of course, is my favorite. I just love the sincere sweetness that radiates from the lead singer. There were no mixed emotions here. If one of them made it, it had to be Poplyfe for me. And it was :D
I lost track of who was still standing during the "entertainment" part of the show. Nick, the skit wasn't funny. Not blaming you, but the writers, obviously. And Howie, seeing bare skin on your head is, frankly, enough. America isn't ready for the Full Monty.
Much more impressive was Il Divo, the classical cross-over quartet, who had the judges standing and Piers smiling at the end of the song "Wicked Game." If you've never heard them do "Mama" it's worth a visit to YouTube.
Following their performance the next two acts, Silhouettes and West Springfield Dance Team, were called on stage. I don't want to take anything away from West Springfield, but this was a no-brainer for me. If Silhouettes hadn't won, I'd be unable to write this post due to shock.
The heart-breaking news for me came when Landou Eugene Murphy, Jr. and Anna Graceman awaited the results. They're both such talented vocalists in their own right. Who do I really want to see move on, and why?
Murphy has a wife and kids. He's struggled most of his life as a car washer. He's not getting any younger and this might be his last shot at fame. Then, again, certainly some agent spotted him and he'd be signed to appear in Vegas despite the results.
Anna is only 11 years old. She has her whole life ahead of her and finishing in the top 10 is certainly not failure. She's supported by her parents, so wouldn't need the money, except for maybe her college education. And headlining in Vegas, might change her too much at such an impressionable age.
Yeah, I had to go with Murphy and when Nick announced Landou Eugene Murphy, Jr. I was happy until I saw the emotional tears streaming down the cheeks of an 11- year-old, heartbroken kid. Chin up, Anna, your life is just beginning, even if your soul is a thousand years old.
And to think, when I was a toddler, singing and dancing my heart out on stage, family and friends thought I was so talented. LOL! Yeah, I would have gotten buzzed by all three judges shortly after the beginning. Unless, of course, it was on cuteness. Hey, where was Little Miss Perfect when I was a kid?
When Smage Bros. were called on stage, along with iLuminate, I was hopeful, even though I knew America voted for iLuminate. I'm not sure where the Smage Bros. will take their motorcycle act, but I'm sure America will hear more of them.
Whilst I enjoy iLuminate's talents, I'll be disappointed if they go all the way. Even though Howie considers them to be the "Second most fun I have in the dark."
I wonder how much influence the judges have on the voting? Last night they weren't thrilled with Miami All Stars, and only Piers raved about Lys Agnes. Neither of them went through and I wonder if the judges' critique had an impact?
Lys stood, tears welled in her eyes, as if she foresaw her forthcoming fate in some crystal ball. She was kicking herself for taking a risk, but shouldn't. Her future doesn't lie in the hands of this show and she will undoubtedly realize a successful career in the industry.
As for Miami All Stars - oh my, ya gotta love 'em. The leader of the pack gave the most exquisite thank you in his Lantino accent that it choked me up a bit.
With only a 1% difference in the votes, Poplyfe and Landon Swank took the stage next. Magicians have never seen the final 10 so, it was unlikely America voted for him, even though he's talented. Poplyfe, of course, is my favorite. I just love the sincere sweetness that radiates from the lead singer. There were no mixed emotions here. If one of them made it, it had to be Poplyfe for me. And it was :D
I lost track of who was still standing during the "entertainment" part of the show. Nick, the skit wasn't funny. Not blaming you, but the writers, obviously. And Howie, seeing bare skin on your head is, frankly, enough. America isn't ready for the Full Monty.
Much more impressive was Il Divo, the classical cross-over quartet, who had the judges standing and Piers smiling at the end of the song "Wicked Game." If you've never heard them do "Mama" it's worth a visit to YouTube.
Following their performance the next two acts, Silhouettes and West Springfield Dance Team, were called on stage. I don't want to take anything away from West Springfield, but this was a no-brainer for me. If Silhouettes hadn't won, I'd be unable to write this post due to shock.
The heart-breaking news for me came when Landou Eugene Murphy, Jr. and Anna Graceman awaited the results. They're both such talented vocalists in their own right. Who do I really want to see move on, and why?
Murphy has a wife and kids. He's struggled most of his life as a car washer. He's not getting any younger and this might be his last shot at fame. Then, again, certainly some agent spotted him and he'd be signed to appear in Vegas despite the results.
Anna is only 11 years old. She has her whole life ahead of her and finishing in the top 10 is certainly not failure. She's supported by her parents, so wouldn't need the money, except for maybe her college education. And headlining in Vegas, might change her too much at such an impressionable age.
Yeah, I had to go with Murphy and when Nick announced Landou Eugene Murphy, Jr. I was happy until I saw the emotional tears streaming down the cheeks of an 11- year-old, heartbroken kid. Chin up, Anna, your life is just beginning, even if your soul is a thousand years old.
And to think, when I was a toddler, singing and dancing my heart out on stage, family and friends thought I was so talented. LOL! Yeah, I would have gotten buzzed by all three judges shortly after the beginning. Unless, of course, it was on cuteness. Hey, where was Little Miss Perfect when I was a kid?
America's Got Talent - Finally the Finalists
It seemed to take forever to get to this stage, where talent abounds. From 100,000 acts (most of the dumbest talent I've ever seen) down to 10. But they couldn't have started the show with a better opening.
I believe that some people simply feel deeper than others and they absorb all the emotion that vibrates throughout our planet. There is no better example of what I'm talking about than Michael Grimm, last year's AGT winner.
He opened tonight's show with "Stay With Me" and I could feel the song, because he sang it with every fiber of his being. He doesn't sing, he experiences a song - lives it - in such a way that his audiences are drawn into his time in space.
To perform a heart-wrenching song with such emotion, when you're sitting on top of the world, just goes to show how talented he is and how much he really deserved to win last year. And I knew it from the first time I saw him perform. :D
Fortunately, they didn't follow his opening with another singer. They opted to bring out the Miami All Stars, who blew me away last week. This week, not so much. The football theme in honor of NFL Kick-Off Week, felt more like a cheer than a dance. The mascot, a chicken, was just cheesy.
But they weren't the only talent to take a risk. A gigantic risk was taken by Lys Agnes, a singer who last week fused rock with opera, did it again this week with an Arrowsmith song, "Dream On." Love the song, love her, but not too sure I liked her switch from soprano to contralto. Frankly, I wish she had sung the song in her normal register, which is fantabulous. The dream catcher she stood in was awesome cool, though. And, no, Sharon, not at all like Cher, who has a one-octave range.
Whilst her performance had magical overtones, Landon Swank brought the real magic. In a New York style apartment setting, he appeared like a suave and debonaire gentleman, conjuring a tablet in his hand, that when put in his mouth, turned into a ewwwwwwwwwwwwwww goldfish. Yeah, he spat it in a glass. Double ewwwwwwwww. Then, he put his hand through the glass aquarium and released da wittle fishy. I've got this one figured out, but I can't give away the secret. :D
What I can't figure out is how an 11-year-old can sing with the same emotion as Michael Grimm, unless her soul is much older than her years. Anna Graceman, sang, sans piano, "True Colors." I don't think it was quite as good as previous performances, but she took a risk by separating herself from the piano.
Next up...Silhouettes, who hit the nail on the head this week by telling a story in dance, of why Americans should be proud. "Believe" which they spelled out at the end of their exquisitely picturesque dance earned them a standing O.
And from the beautiful to the daring, the Smage Bros. were next on stage. Frankly, I'm beginning to believe that the kid who doesn't ride is the bravest of all. Tonight he was hit in the head and leg, as the motorcycles zoomed around the stage, up and down the planks and wheelied across a slender, metal bar. Their act is nothing short of jaw-dropping, breath-holding entertainment.
But the one act that never fails to entertain me is Poplyfe, who also received a standing O, after their Michael Jackson medley. Both last week and this week, they took a risk by performing songs made popular by all-time great artists and amazingly turned 'em out even better.
The one act, who I believe, didn't even deserve to be there from the start - West Springfield Horror Dance Team - is finally getting old to the judges. Their gory, zombie routine tonight was, as the judges said, "predictable."
Now you might call Landou Eugene Murphy, Jr. predictable, as well. He's a crooner and there's not much a crooner can do, but croon. Of course when you croon with a voice like Sinatra and perform with the style of Dean Martin, all to a big band, it's more than just singing. He made the stage come alive with "Kick in the Head." Wonder if Vegas has any crooners? Even Piers said that the one act he'd shell out money to see is Murphy, to which Sharon said, that's saying a lot coming from someone as tight as Piers.
Last to perform, and an act which I've always viewed as "just another glow in the dark act" really lit up the stage tonight. iLuminate was electrifying, but I'm sure it doesn't translate as well via satellite.
There were 10 very talented and deserving acts tonight - well nine. But only four are going through and this time it's all on America's shoulders. *sighs* I'm just glad it doesn't rest on mine. Although, I know I'm voting for Poplyfe.
I believe that some people simply feel deeper than others and they absorb all the emotion that vibrates throughout our planet. There is no better example of what I'm talking about than Michael Grimm, last year's AGT winner.
He opened tonight's show with "Stay With Me" and I could feel the song, because he sang it with every fiber of his being. He doesn't sing, he experiences a song - lives it - in such a way that his audiences are drawn into his time in space.
To perform a heart-wrenching song with such emotion, when you're sitting on top of the world, just goes to show how talented he is and how much he really deserved to win last year. And I knew it from the first time I saw him perform. :D
Fortunately, they didn't follow his opening with another singer. They opted to bring out the Miami All Stars, who blew me away last week. This week, not so much. The football theme in honor of NFL Kick-Off Week, felt more like a cheer than a dance. The mascot, a chicken, was just cheesy.
But they weren't the only talent to take a risk. A gigantic risk was taken by Lys Agnes, a singer who last week fused rock with opera, did it again this week with an Arrowsmith song, "Dream On." Love the song, love her, but not too sure I liked her switch from soprano to contralto. Frankly, I wish she had sung the song in her normal register, which is fantabulous. The dream catcher she stood in was awesome cool, though. And, no, Sharon, not at all like Cher, who has a one-octave range.
Whilst her performance had magical overtones, Landon Swank brought the real magic. In a New York style apartment setting, he appeared like a suave and debonaire gentleman, conjuring a tablet in his hand, that when put in his mouth, turned into a ewwwwwwwwwwwwwww goldfish. Yeah, he spat it in a glass. Double ewwwwwwwww. Then, he put his hand through the glass aquarium and released da wittle fishy. I've got this one figured out, but I can't give away the secret. :D
What I can't figure out is how an 11-year-old can sing with the same emotion as Michael Grimm, unless her soul is much older than her years. Anna Graceman, sang, sans piano, "True Colors." I don't think it was quite as good as previous performances, but she took a risk by separating herself from the piano.
Next up...Silhouettes, who hit the nail on the head this week by telling a story in dance, of why Americans should be proud. "Believe" which they spelled out at the end of their exquisitely picturesque dance earned them a standing O.
And from the beautiful to the daring, the Smage Bros. were next on stage. Frankly, I'm beginning to believe that the kid who doesn't ride is the bravest of all. Tonight he was hit in the head and leg, as the motorcycles zoomed around the stage, up and down the planks and wheelied across a slender, metal bar. Their act is nothing short of jaw-dropping, breath-holding entertainment.
But the one act that never fails to entertain me is Poplyfe, who also received a standing O, after their Michael Jackson medley. Both last week and this week, they took a risk by performing songs made popular by all-time great artists and amazingly turned 'em out even better.
The one act, who I believe, didn't even deserve to be there from the start - West Springfield Horror Dance Team - is finally getting old to the judges. Their gory, zombie routine tonight was, as the judges said, "predictable."
Now you might call Landou Eugene Murphy, Jr. predictable, as well. He's a crooner and there's not much a crooner can do, but croon. Of course when you croon with a voice like Sinatra and perform with the style of Dean Martin, all to a big band, it's more than just singing. He made the stage come alive with "Kick in the Head." Wonder if Vegas has any crooners? Even Piers said that the one act he'd shell out money to see is Murphy, to which Sharon said, that's saying a lot coming from someone as tight as Piers.
Last to perform, and an act which I've always viewed as "just another glow in the dark act" really lit up the stage tonight. iLuminate was electrifying, but I'm sure it doesn't translate as well via satellite.
There were 10 very talented and deserving acts tonight - well nine. But only four are going through and this time it's all on America's shoulders. *sighs* I'm just glad it doesn't rest on mine. Although, I know I'm voting for Poplyfe.
Tuesday, September 6, 2011
How Forgiving Are You? Or Are You Forgiving At All?
I have to admit that I'm not a forgiving person - once I've been betrayed, an apology doesn't turn things around for me. I live by the motto, "Shit on me once, shame on you. Shit on me twice, shame on me." You'd have to be some kind of idiot to go back for more, right?
It's not that I hold onto the betrayal - no, I won't do that to myself. When I finally realize that a person screwed me over, I simply create this fantabulous scenario in my mind where, he/she suffers greatly and then dies. Yes, in my mind they must die for their iniquities. But then it's over and done, whist never forgotten. It's just easier to forgive when they're dead and gone.
My mother had a daughter once - many years before giving birth to me - who had a tribe of little bastards and one day, after many betrayals - none of which I forgot - I placed them all in a cabin up in Sedona in the middle of winter and Kaboom baybay. Blown to smithereens. The final betrayal and they've all been dead to me ever since. So, yeah, I write my little fantasy stories and it gets me through life. We all, each and everyone of us, have our ways of coping with life. This works for me.
When I was three I was raped by my sitter's brother. No biggie, because consciously I didn't remember the incident; the memory - not the event - came much later and he was no more than maybe 12 from what I recollect.
Throughout my childhood I was molested by every pervert that came within close proximity. A friend's grandfather, a man from my father's business, who "Finds great pleasure in taking a little girl to kiddyland and the zoo," (my mother was all too willing to be free of me for a day - no I never forgave her)a man who owned a little neighborhood grocery store, the father of kids I babysat with once, a customer of my father's, who would let me sit on his lap and pretend to drive the car. What a thrill for a little girl - even more of a thrill for a pervert. LOL! Oh, and let us not forget, my mother's husband, who told a 10 year old it was okay, because he wasn't her real dad. Yeah, these things happen even with the well-to-do.
In my teens, I suffered two rapes. The first by a high school friend. The other by a man who offered to help me out of a sticky situation. LOL. There were two attempted rapes in my early teens that I was fortunate to avoid. One, due to the kindness of a stranger and another due to a bottle of wine. Several years after the second rape, I encountered that "helpful" man in church. He was taking collections and sat with his wife and kids. When he came to my pew, the blood drained from his face. Wonder why? Of course if he was repentant, God can forgive him. I'm not God.
So, can I forgive all these perverts that caused me harm? Can I even make excuses for them? For the longest time I thought I was some awful person to attract these kinds of people. I know better now. I know it wasn't my fault. But the memories are still there, buried deep in my subconscious, locked safely away until something happens that allows them to escape.
They escape when I let my guard down and semi-trust someone. (Yeah, unbelievable that I have trust issues LOL) only to learn I've, once again, been betrayed. Then, I have the daunting task of gathering all those memories and locking them up again.(Do traumatized children ever really forget the trauma?).
I've never been good at relationships, because I'm not trusting; therefore, I avoid them. I remain uninvolved and uncommitted. I'm actually much happier that way. Life shouldn't be taken seriously and when one allows the seriousness of a relationship to enter their lives, they foolishly expect fairytale endings. Well honestly, folks, what comes after "...and they lived happily ever after?" The end! LOFL!
If you open the door to a person you know is untrustworthy, you deserve a kick in the ass. But what constitutes a liar or a cheat? Can you forgive little white lies? "No that dress doesn't make your ass look big." Strangely, I can't. That's a betrayal to me. How could someone who cares about you, let you go out in an outfit that makes your ass look big? I could never trust that person again. Can you forgive someone who cheats on their taxes? Well, for heaven's sake, who doesn't? But if they cheat the government so easily, what would prevent them from cheating on anything/anyone else?
Is it okay if you're in a relationship, to flirt? If you're a known flirt, which I am, and you know I am, guess it should be over-looked, right? Or is it dependent upon how far the flirtations go? If someone flirts with explicit sexual connotations and innuendos, with the same person, not just once, but over a period of months, even inviting the person to meet with them, is that flirting or cheating? Should that be over-looked, forgiven and forgotten? Dealt with? Is it an unfortunate "Mistake" if it happened over and over? Is it okay to lie (deny) about what happened for "Good reason." Can you ever trust the person again? Or are you just being a dope, who is taking a little indiscretion too seriously?
So, how forgiving are you? Or are you forgiving at all?
You can post your comments anonymously. But please do comment. Too often people read and think their comment or input isn't important - it really is.
It's not that I hold onto the betrayal - no, I won't do that to myself. When I finally realize that a person screwed me over, I simply create this fantabulous scenario in my mind where, he/she suffers greatly and then dies. Yes, in my mind they must die for their iniquities. But then it's over and done, whist never forgotten. It's just easier to forgive when they're dead and gone.
My mother had a daughter once - many years before giving birth to me - who had a tribe of little bastards and one day, after many betrayals - none of which I forgot - I placed them all in a cabin up in Sedona in the middle of winter and Kaboom baybay. Blown to smithereens. The final betrayal and they've all been dead to me ever since. So, yeah, I write my little fantasy stories and it gets me through life. We all, each and everyone of us, have our ways of coping with life. This works for me.
When I was three I was raped by my sitter's brother. No biggie, because consciously I didn't remember the incident; the memory - not the event - came much later and he was no more than maybe 12 from what I recollect.
Throughout my childhood I was molested by every pervert that came within close proximity. A friend's grandfather, a man from my father's business, who "Finds great pleasure in taking a little girl to kiddyland and the zoo," (my mother was all too willing to be free of me for a day - no I never forgave her)a man who owned a little neighborhood grocery store, the father of kids I babysat with once, a customer of my father's, who would let me sit on his lap and pretend to drive the car. What a thrill for a little girl - even more of a thrill for a pervert. LOL! Oh, and let us not forget, my mother's husband, who told a 10 year old it was okay, because he wasn't her real dad. Yeah, these things happen even with the well-to-do.
In my teens, I suffered two rapes. The first by a high school friend. The other by a man who offered to help me out of a sticky situation. LOL. There were two attempted rapes in my early teens that I was fortunate to avoid. One, due to the kindness of a stranger and another due to a bottle of wine. Several years after the second rape, I encountered that "helpful" man in church. He was taking collections and sat with his wife and kids. When he came to my pew, the blood drained from his face. Wonder why? Of course if he was repentant, God can forgive him. I'm not God.
So, can I forgive all these perverts that caused me harm? Can I even make excuses for them? For the longest time I thought I was some awful person to attract these kinds of people. I know better now. I know it wasn't my fault. But the memories are still there, buried deep in my subconscious, locked safely away until something happens that allows them to escape.
They escape when I let my guard down and semi-trust someone. (Yeah, unbelievable that I have trust issues LOL) only to learn I've, once again, been betrayed. Then, I have the daunting task of gathering all those memories and locking them up again.(Do traumatized children ever really forget the trauma?).
I've never been good at relationships, because I'm not trusting; therefore, I avoid them. I remain uninvolved and uncommitted. I'm actually much happier that way. Life shouldn't be taken seriously and when one allows the seriousness of a relationship to enter their lives, they foolishly expect fairytale endings. Well honestly, folks, what comes after "...and they lived happily ever after?" The end! LOFL!
If you open the door to a person you know is untrustworthy, you deserve a kick in the ass. But what constitutes a liar or a cheat? Can you forgive little white lies? "No that dress doesn't make your ass look big." Strangely, I can't. That's a betrayal to me. How could someone who cares about you, let you go out in an outfit that makes your ass look big? I could never trust that person again. Can you forgive someone who cheats on their taxes? Well, for heaven's sake, who doesn't? But if they cheat the government so easily, what would prevent them from cheating on anything/anyone else?
Is it okay if you're in a relationship, to flirt? If you're a known flirt, which I am, and you know I am, guess it should be over-looked, right? Or is it dependent upon how far the flirtations go? If someone flirts with explicit sexual connotations and innuendos, with the same person, not just once, but over a period of months, even inviting the person to meet with them, is that flirting or cheating? Should that be over-looked, forgiven and forgotten? Dealt with? Is it an unfortunate "Mistake" if it happened over and over? Is it okay to lie (deny) about what happened for "Good reason." Can you ever trust the person again? Or are you just being a dope, who is taking a little indiscretion too seriously?
So, how forgiving are you? Or are you forgiving at all?
You can post your comments anonymously. But please do comment. Too often people read and think their comment or input isn't important - it really is.
Saturday, September 3, 2011
LuckyFool Breaks the Avilo Curse at It's Gosu LAN #3
Don't know how Luckyfool is feeling now after finally beating avilo 2-0, but I'd think he's feeling pretty damn happy. I have to admit that Lucky's games have gotten better, even though avilo played with less patience than usual and made some major mistakes.
I can make lots of excuses as to why avilo lost in today's event, but I really do think he jinxed himself - No Hat - No Green - No Sleep - Little Practice - No Sassy - No Cyberground. (Learned the real reason he was jinxed. Sup Son?)
Most of the DC area LAN tournaments have quit CyberGround because they were being unfair and because it was small and "stinky," according to some of the players. They're using Netolic facilities in Annandale, VA. now. Avilo has attended two there, this one and the one sponsored by dcsc2, where he took second.
But this is about Lucky's win. He was to the point where he never thought he'd beat Avilo and tonight he was on a roll, even though he lost to HwangSin twice. The first game HwangSin dropped Lucky to the loser's bracket 2-0. But he faced him again for 1st place, after beating ices, avilo and wbc.
Of course, I wouldn't miss an It's Gosu LAN tournament, even if they do bring in their pros to take the win. Guess it's their money and they wanna keep it in the family. LOL! Actually, I said that in chat and Ayesee countered with, they bring in the pros because other players enjoy playing the pros. Guess I'll have to talk to the "other players." hehe
So even though Lucky lost to HwangSin in the finals 3-0, he came in second and can go home flying, because he beat avilo, who, unfortunately, went home in fourth.
The top three -
HwangSin - Protoss (ez) Gold
Luckyfool - Terran Silver
wbc - Protoss (ez) Bronze
Avilo - fourth - the only this he ended up taking home was his date, so the night wasn't a total loss - hopefully :D
Since I haven't been hanging around the SC community much, I have to say that I enjoyed seeing the It's Gosu group and chat was fun and funny as usual. Redmagejr and Ayesee are great casters. And Zyori, formerly from Hypercrew, sat in so Redmage could take a break. Ayesee doesn't get a break.
Fireminx, Redmage's gf was suppose to be there, but came down with the makins of a migraine - not fun. She popped up in chat though and she's as much fun as her lesser half. (kidding Redmage)
My3000Ride, was first to greet me and I just smiled from ear to ear. He's one of mods, who apparently reads my blogs, but never comments. *glares* Hey, as long as he lurks and laughs it's okay with me.
Orion was in chat too, but a very different Orion than when I first met him. Subdued in comparison. Now I'm worried.
It wasn't until much later that Voss showed up, but Minx and I had fun teasing him behind his back about George Clooney. Hey, Voss, didn't know you have a poster of him hanging over your bed. LOL
Mumbles, one of the other mods, tried giving oral instructions - and they weren't voice lessons; however me thinks he needs more practice. But it was pretty funny.
All in all, despite the fact that avilo was probably feeling pretty down after the tournament, it was a great event. And yeah, from this day forward, watch out because avilo will probably come back like a beast - and that goes for you IG guys, too. :)Alls I can say to It's Gosu is bring it!
For replays of today's event go to: http://www.itsgosu.com/ you might have to navigate around a bit, but it's worth the effort.
Also for Zyori, who's making his own way since he left Hypercrew, go to http://www.zyori.tv/
And lastly, if you're a Terran fan and like watching exciting ladder play, with great commentary and super silliness, avilo's still showing off with his nukes @ http://www.twitch.tv/avilo#/w/1606084208/2
See you guys @ the next LAN.
I can make lots of excuses as to why avilo lost in today's event, but I really do think he jinxed himself - No Hat - No Green - No Sleep - Little Practice - No Sassy - No Cyberground. (Learned the real reason he was jinxed. Sup Son?)
Most of the DC area LAN tournaments have quit CyberGround because they were being unfair and because it was small and "stinky," according to some of the players. They're using Netolic facilities in Annandale, VA. now. Avilo has attended two there, this one and the one sponsored by dcsc2, where he took second.
But this is about Lucky's win. He was to the point where he never thought he'd beat Avilo and tonight he was on a roll, even though he lost to HwangSin twice. The first game HwangSin dropped Lucky to the loser's bracket 2-0. But he faced him again for 1st place, after beating ices, avilo and wbc.
Of course, I wouldn't miss an It's Gosu LAN tournament, even if they do bring in their pros to take the win. Guess it's their money and they wanna keep it in the family. LOL! Actually, I said that in chat and Ayesee countered with, they bring in the pros because other players enjoy playing the pros. Guess I'll have to talk to the "other players." hehe
So even though Lucky lost to HwangSin in the finals 3-0, he came in second and can go home flying, because he beat avilo, who, unfortunately, went home in fourth.
The top three -
HwangSin - Protoss (ez) Gold
Luckyfool - Terran Silver
wbc - Protoss (ez) Bronze
Avilo - fourth - the only this he ended up taking home was his date, so the night wasn't a total loss - hopefully :D
Since I haven't been hanging around the SC community much, I have to say that I enjoyed seeing the It's Gosu group and chat was fun and funny as usual. Redmagejr and Ayesee are great casters. And Zyori, formerly from Hypercrew, sat in so Redmage could take a break. Ayesee doesn't get a break.
Fireminx, Redmage's gf was suppose to be there, but came down with the makins of a migraine - not fun. She popped up in chat though and she's as much fun as her lesser half. (kidding Redmage)
My3000Ride, was first to greet me and I just smiled from ear to ear. He's one of mods, who apparently reads my blogs, but never comments. *glares* Hey, as long as he lurks and laughs it's okay with me.
Orion was in chat too, but a very different Orion than when I first met him. Subdued in comparison. Now I'm worried.
It wasn't until much later that Voss showed up, but Minx and I had fun teasing him behind his back about George Clooney. Hey, Voss, didn't know you have a poster of him hanging over your bed. LOL
Mumbles, one of the other mods, tried giving oral instructions - and they weren't voice lessons; however me thinks he needs more practice. But it was pretty funny.
All in all, despite the fact that avilo was probably feeling pretty down after the tournament, it was a great event. And yeah, from this day forward, watch out because avilo will probably come back like a beast - and that goes for you IG guys, too. :)Alls I can say to It's Gosu is bring it!
For replays of today's event go to: http://www.itsgosu.com/ you might have to navigate around a bit, but it's worth the effort.
Also for Zyori, who's making his own way since he left Hypercrew, go to http://www.zyori.tv/
And lastly, if you're a Terran fan and like watching exciting ladder play, with great commentary and super silliness, avilo's still showing off with his nukes @ http://www.twitch.tv/avilo#/w/1606084208/2
See you guys @ the next LAN.
Wednesday, August 31, 2011
America's Got Talent - The Results - 8-31-11
Tonight ended the semi-finals. Unfortunately, for every winner there's someone who didn't win. See, I didn't say loser, because there's a place for each act that performed last night. They were all good.
My picks were obvious - they were the ones in caps in the poll. lol Would I have wanted Snap Boogie to replace Silhouettes? I'm not sure. Silhouettes wasn't that impressive last night, but if I voted on past performances, they've been spectacular. Their act is definitely unique and versatile. Watching them perform is mesmerizing.
When Snap Boogie was called to the stage with the Smage Bros. and Kinetic King, my only hope was that America didn't have their heads up their butts. When KK was eliminated, I was relieved. However, two acts, for which I voted, stood on the stage anxiously awaiting the judges decision.
I like Snap Boogie. He's talented and exciting to watch, but he doesn't take your breath away like the Smage Bros do. I had a feeling that the judges would vote the Smage Bros. into the finals - and they did. So what happens to Snap Boogie now? Certainly he won't be a street performer forever. Hopefully, an agent saw him and we'll be hearing good things about his success. He deserves a place in the world of entertainment.
There wasn't a doubt in my mind that Landon Swank, who was originally voted out of the competition and brought back as a wild card, would make it through.
What concerned me was when Anna Graceman and Landou Eugene Murphy, Jr. were both called to the stage. Then I thought LOL - AGT you're not gonna fool me again. Of course they're both going through. Only when Nick announced the winner - Anna Graceman - I sat with my jaw to the floor. Not that she doesn't deserve to be in the finals, but so does Murphy, dammit!
When Nick pulled him over to let him say his final words, I was sad and I'm sure his wife, who stood behind him and believed in him all these years, was heartbroken too. Then I thought, maybe it's better like this. Maybe it's better because if he does gain popularity, he'll probably start fooling around with women and y'all will end up divorced. Yeah, you saw him through the bad times, but he won't need you anymore if he becomes famous. That's just how it works.
Still, I felt bad for him. Then, after Murphy thanked everyone for the opportunity and made his farewell speech, Nick, (and whoever had this idea I'm putting a curse on you) said, "Well, what if I told you, you're not going home?" DUH!
Watch out now Mrs. Murphy. LOL
The acts you'll be seeing in next week's finals are:
From last weeks results
From this weeks results
By the way, I loved Susan Boyle's song, "You Have To Be There," which she performed beautifully, as usual, on tonight's show. Was it a religious song or a love song? hmmmm? Searched for the lyrics, but couldn't find them anywhere. Oh wells. EDIT: I finally found the lyrics to the song and it is religious in nature.
See y'all next week, if I'm still here.
P.S. I received the most beautiful "hugs and kisses" floral arrangement today along with the ugliest stuffed animal I've ever seen. You know the kind that's so ugly you have to love it? Thank you, avilo. #9829.
My picks were obvious - they were the ones in caps in the poll. lol Would I have wanted Snap Boogie to replace Silhouettes? I'm not sure. Silhouettes wasn't that impressive last night, but if I voted on past performances, they've been spectacular. Their act is definitely unique and versatile. Watching them perform is mesmerizing.
When Snap Boogie was called to the stage with the Smage Bros. and Kinetic King, my only hope was that America didn't have their heads up their butts. When KK was eliminated, I was relieved. However, two acts, for which I voted, stood on the stage anxiously awaiting the judges decision.
I like Snap Boogie. He's talented and exciting to watch, but he doesn't take your breath away like the Smage Bros do. I had a feeling that the judges would vote the Smage Bros. into the finals - and they did. So what happens to Snap Boogie now? Certainly he won't be a street performer forever. Hopefully, an agent saw him and we'll be hearing good things about his success. He deserves a place in the world of entertainment.
There wasn't a doubt in my mind that Landon Swank, who was originally voted out of the competition and brought back as a wild card, would make it through.
What concerned me was when Anna Graceman and Landou Eugene Murphy, Jr. were both called to the stage. Then I thought LOL - AGT you're not gonna fool me again. Of course they're both going through. Only when Nick announced the winner - Anna Graceman - I sat with my jaw to the floor. Not that she doesn't deserve to be in the finals, but so does Murphy, dammit!
When Nick pulled him over to let him say his final words, I was sad and I'm sure his wife, who stood behind him and believed in him all these years, was heartbroken too. Then I thought, maybe it's better like this. Maybe it's better because if he does gain popularity, he'll probably start fooling around with women and y'all will end up divorced. Yeah, you saw him through the bad times, but he won't need you anymore if he becomes famous. That's just how it works.
Still, I felt bad for him. Then, after Murphy thanked everyone for the opportunity and made his farewell speech, Nick, (and whoever had this idea I'm putting a curse on you) said, "Well, what if I told you, you're not going home?" DUH!
Watch out now Mrs. Murphy. LOL
The acts you'll be seeing in next week's finals are:
From last weeks results
iLluminate
Poplyfe
Lys Agnes
Miami All Stars
West Springfield Dance Team
From this weeks results
Silhouettes
Landou Eugene Murphy, Jr.
Anna Graceman
Landon Swank
Smage Bros.
By the way, I loved Susan Boyle's song, "You Have To Be There," which she performed beautifully, as usual, on tonight's show. Was it a religious song or a love song? hmmmm? Searched for the lyrics, but couldn't find them anywhere. Oh wells. EDIT: I finally found the lyrics to the song and it is religious in nature.
See y'all next week, if I'm still here.
P.S. I received the most beautiful "hugs and kisses" floral arrangement today along with the ugliest stuffed animal I've ever seen. You know the kind that's so ugly you have to love it? Thank you, avilo. #9829.
America's Got Talent - The Last 12 - 8/30/11
This is the last chance for the final 12 to prove they deserve to go to the finals and only five will be voted through.
Obviously, the act that would have to open is the act that takes up the whole stage. It's over the fastest and takes the longest to set up and that's the Kinetic King. He's personable - "oh yeah." He's likeable and funny. America loves him. But I still don't see anyone actually paying to watch a show in Vegas that's over in five seconds, even with his Elton John styled goggles.
Next up was the intense Fatally Unique - only they weren't so unique. They copied The Silence of the Lambs theme in costume so that they could be more like West Springfield Dance Team.
When it comes to magicians Landon Swank is impressive. His illusion was original, interesting, and as death defying as the last time he appeared. He opened as a hologram to introduce the act and instruct the judges. See it was up to them to choose a key from one through four. Those keys were coordinated to boxes numbered one through four that were suspended in the air.
We learn that he is in one of the four boxes and each box has explosives inside. The judges choose the number, turn the key that ignites the explosives, and hope they picked one that wouldn't have them committing murder on live TV.
As the judges turn the keys, the boxes explode, except for one, which just happens to be the box in which Swank is enclosed. And to prove that box could have exploded, if that particular key was turned, Piers was selected to turn key number two. KABOOM Baby!
Gymkana, the YouTube tumbling act was next to perform. They exchanged the ladder for chairs, one balanced on top of another, and whilst the tumblers tumbled, one of the team members did hand stands atop the chairs. It was just tumbling until they lit a ring of fire that they jump through. Unfortunately, they played with fire and got burnt and the act was done. Hopefully, no one was seriously injured.
I never thought much of Summerwind Skippers, but tonight they brought such great theatrics to their act that I was mesmerized. Then they messed up - not once, but twice. And even though they nailed the trick that they messed up last time, you just don't make mistakes when it's your last shot at the finals.
The kid who came from the streets where he performs his hip hop dance to help support his family was next on stage. Snap Boogie can dance and even though the judges weren't crazy about his opening, I liked it. He's versatile, personable, sincere and a natural talent.
And speaking of natural talents, Anna Graceman, the little girl with the big voice, knocked 'em dead with her twist on a Motley Creu song, "Home Sweet Home." She was possibly the best of the night and definitely the only one to get a standing O from all three judges.
Steven Retchless, the pole dancer, performed exquisitely. I can't imagine the upper body strength it must take to do what he does. He makes it look so easy.
But the most exciting act of the night was by far the Smage Bros. Riding Show, et al. Talk about a trusting family, even Granny Smage got in the act tonight. "We need ya to jump over, Granny." They performed incredible stunts to "Take Me Home Country Road" and before it was all over, the whole family was lying on the stage. Human props, one and all.
Now who can compete in a race against the Kinetic King for the fastest performance? That would be Professor Splash, the circus act, who for some reason made it to the semis. Oh yeah, he dives from a great height into 12 inches of water. Well tonight he dove from twice the height - 70 feet - into an 8 feet deep fiery pool of water at 60 mph. Don't blink or you've missed the show. Twice the height, but way more than twice the water. I suck at math so maybe someone else can figure this out.
I can't believe that a voice as smooth and mellow as Landou Eugene Murphy, Jr.'s voice has never been discovered. He blows me away with his talent. Tonight he performed a Sinatra song, "I've Got the World on a String" with all the Vegas style hoopla; big band, dancers, stage setting. Yeah, he deserves to be in Vegas, even if he doesn't win the AGT competition.
The last performers of the night were Silhouettes and unlike Fatally Unique, they really are unique; however, tonight's performance just wasn't as stunning as past performances.
So which five are going to the finals? Hope America thinks before they vote.
Obviously, the act that would have to open is the act that takes up the whole stage. It's over the fastest and takes the longest to set up and that's the Kinetic King. He's personable - "oh yeah." He's likeable and funny. America loves him. But I still don't see anyone actually paying to watch a show in Vegas that's over in five seconds, even with his Elton John styled goggles.
Next up was the intense Fatally Unique - only they weren't so unique. They copied The Silence of the Lambs theme in costume so that they could be more like West Springfield Dance Team.
When it comes to magicians Landon Swank is impressive. His illusion was original, interesting, and as death defying as the last time he appeared. He opened as a hologram to introduce the act and instruct the judges. See it was up to them to choose a key from one through four. Those keys were coordinated to boxes numbered one through four that were suspended in the air.
We learn that he is in one of the four boxes and each box has explosives inside. The judges choose the number, turn the key that ignites the explosives, and hope they picked one that wouldn't have them committing murder on live TV.
As the judges turn the keys, the boxes explode, except for one, which just happens to be the box in which Swank is enclosed. And to prove that box could have exploded, if that particular key was turned, Piers was selected to turn key number two. KABOOM Baby!
Gymkana, the YouTube tumbling act was next to perform. They exchanged the ladder for chairs, one balanced on top of another, and whilst the tumblers tumbled, one of the team members did hand stands atop the chairs. It was just tumbling until they lit a ring of fire that they jump through. Unfortunately, they played with fire and got burnt and the act was done. Hopefully, no one was seriously injured.
I never thought much of Summerwind Skippers, but tonight they brought such great theatrics to their act that I was mesmerized. Then they messed up - not once, but twice. And even though they nailed the trick that they messed up last time, you just don't make mistakes when it's your last shot at the finals.
The kid who came from the streets where he performs his hip hop dance to help support his family was next on stage. Snap Boogie can dance and even though the judges weren't crazy about his opening, I liked it. He's versatile, personable, sincere and a natural talent.
And speaking of natural talents, Anna Graceman, the little girl with the big voice, knocked 'em dead with her twist on a Motley Creu song, "Home Sweet Home." She was possibly the best of the night and definitely the only one to get a standing O from all three judges.
Steven Retchless, the pole dancer, performed exquisitely. I can't imagine the upper body strength it must take to do what he does. He makes it look so easy.
But the most exciting act of the night was by far the Smage Bros. Riding Show, et al. Talk about a trusting family, even Granny Smage got in the act tonight. "We need ya to jump over, Granny." They performed incredible stunts to "Take Me Home Country Road" and before it was all over, the whole family was lying on the stage. Human props, one and all.
Now who can compete in a race against the Kinetic King for the fastest performance? That would be Professor Splash, the circus act, who for some reason made it to the semis. Oh yeah, he dives from a great height into 12 inches of water. Well tonight he dove from twice the height - 70 feet - into an 8 feet deep fiery pool of water at 60 mph. Don't blink or you've missed the show. Twice the height, but way more than twice the water. I suck at math so maybe someone else can figure this out.
I can't believe that a voice as smooth and mellow as Landou Eugene Murphy, Jr.'s voice has never been discovered. He blows me away with his talent. Tonight he performed a Sinatra song, "I've Got the World on a String" with all the Vegas style hoopla; big band, dancers, stage setting. Yeah, he deserves to be in Vegas, even if he doesn't win the AGT competition.
The last performers of the night were Silhouettes and unlike Fatally Unique, they really are unique; however, tonight's performance just wasn't as stunning as past performances.
So which five are going to the finals? Hope America thinks before they vote.
Monday, August 29, 2011
Dancing with the Stars New Cast Announced and I'm Posting About Suicide?????
avilo said 'There's always hope" and sure enough, the new cast of DWTS is announced. Frankly, I think avilo misread or misinterpreted or whatever he does that causes me to get "my panties in a knot" like he says. Frankly, I think he does it intentionally to watch me QQ. *sighs*
There were rumors on Twitter earlier that the new cast was announced and it was wrong, so I don't know if this is reliable; however, I'm going to post it anyway.
Rickie Lake - She stared in Hairspray, a musical, when she was a fatty. So she
knows how to dance.
Rob Kardashian - You mean to tell me there's a brother in the tribe?
Chaz Bono - The sweet little daughter of Sonny and Cher, who is now a son.
Kristin Cavallari - Don't know her, but guess she's from The Hills.
Chynna Phillips - The daughter of Michelle Phillips from the 70s group Mamas
and Papas and vocalist in the group Wilson Phillips.
David Arquette - Wasn't he married to Courtney Cox?
Elisabetta Canalis - Didn't she used to be with George (I think I'm so hot) Clooney?
Nancy Grace - You've gotta worry about anyone with two first names. Heard she's a
news anchor.
Hope Solis - No, in the U.S. Soccer isn't considered football. Where are all the
football players this season?
Ron Artest - L.A. Lakers dude.
J.R. Martinez - Actor from All My Children. Is that still on the air?
Carson Kressley - Actor
With the exception of Ricky Lake, Chaz Bono, and Chynna Phillips, guess I'm going to have to get to know all the rest of cast as the season progresses.
There were rumors on Twitter earlier that the new cast was announced and it was wrong, so I don't know if this is reliable; however, I'm going to post it anyway.
Rickie Lake - She stared in Hairspray, a musical, when she was a fatty. So she
knows how to dance.
Rob Kardashian - You mean to tell me there's a brother in the tribe?
Chaz Bono - The sweet little daughter of Sonny and Cher, who is now a son.
Kristin Cavallari - Don't know her, but guess she's from The Hills.
Chynna Phillips - The daughter of Michelle Phillips from the 70s group Mamas
and Papas and vocalist in the group Wilson Phillips.
David Arquette - Wasn't he married to Courtney Cox?
Elisabetta Canalis - Didn't she used to be with George (I think I'm so hot) Clooney?
Nancy Grace - You've gotta worry about anyone with two first names. Heard she's a
news anchor.
Hope Solis - No, in the U.S. Soccer isn't considered football. Where are all the
football players this season?
Ron Artest - L.A. Lakers dude.
J.R. Martinez - Actor from All My Children. Is that still on the air?
Carson Kressley - Actor
With the exception of Ricky Lake, Chaz Bono, and Chynna Phillips, guess I'm going to have to get to know all the rest of cast as the season progresses.
Suicide - The Only Cure for Life?
Life can be a bitter drink, but in movies death is a beautiful escape for which awards are won. Movies paint a picture where death offers relief from a torturous and excruciatingly painful existence. The deceased is lovingly wrapped in the feathery folds of angel's wings and transitioned to paradise.
Some of us have been taught that "Our" lives are not ours to take. It's a mortal sin! It's murder of one's self. "Thou shalt not kill." Hmmm? Numerologists tell us that we have chosen this life - along with its people and circumstances - from which to learn. Therefore, should we decide to end it before its set date of completion, we're doomed to return and start all over - same people, same circumstances. That thought has kept me alive. I do believe there's even laws against taking ones own life. If that's true, it really isn't your life.
We can only speculate what drives a person to their own demise. Even suicide notes explaining why, offer little insight. It's not just a single event scribbled in a note; it's a lifetime of events that push people from the cliff.
For Annie, "The Sun Will Come Out Tomorrow" and that sometimes gets people through the night to face another day. But what if day after day the sun doesn't shine? What if black, ominous clouds follow them throughout their days and only on rare occasion allow the sun to peek through? Is it okay to end their emotional suffering?
I've heard it said that people who choose to take their lives are weak? But are they really? Think about it! How hopeless, how unloved must one feel to face the great unknown; to end life thinking that death will be more than some black hole of oblivion?
Frankly, I don't believe people really want to end life, unless, due to illness, the end is inevitable and long-suffering. Emotionally distraught people just want to end the pain from which they've been unable to find relief.
Some suicides aren't spontaneous acts. The thought has weighed on their minds from the first experienced trauma. When the decision is finally made, it's methodically designed. Subconsciously, for years, they've began to get their house in order. Finally, the time is right. One more disappointment, failure, trauma, stressful situation, etc. and they're ready. Good-bye cruel world.
You laughed with them yesterday. You planned a trip with them for next month. You loved them. How could they do this? Why didn't you see this coming? What ifs race through your mind unceasingly. You feel like you're being punished. But for what crime? Obliviousness?
Some suicides hide their pain well. Even if you were aware of their sufferings, once they have decided to "end it all" there is nothing you can do to stop them, short of sitting with them 24/7 until the phase passes. You might report them, in which case they'd be stigmatized for the rest of their lives, causing even more trauma. Or you can convince them to get the proper help, via drugs and counseling, which aren't always effective and at times compound the problem, especially if they're reluctant to begin with. Yes, we're at a loss, because we're indecisive and fearful of doing something wrong. Plus, we have our own problems and hectic lives. So, we choose to remain uninvolved.
I've known people who have taken their lives. A boy in his teens, who by outwardly appearances had everything going for him, jumped in front of a train; a gay guy, who suffered from depression (most likely caused by the cruelty of others)had threatened and attempted suicide numerous times, was finally successful with booze and pills; an uncle, who put a gun to his head and blew his brains out.
There once was a girl, who, at eight, took a bottle of aspirin. Her stomach was pumped and she survived. But at ten she jumped off a roof. Again she survived. In her teens she became a cutter, actually slitting her wrists once, but only across the street, not down the road. The physical pain was more bearable. She's overdosed, but not enough to cause death. Numerous times she sat in a garage with the motor running, only to have neighbors report vapors seeping through the cracks.
She was a pretty girl, popular, witty, talented, smart; you'd have to wonder why anyone with all those attributes would want to die. Was she overly dramatic? In need of attention? Weak? How did life fail her? Who in life failed her? Or was she overly sensitive to her surroundings?
Sometimes I wonder if people who commit suicide just need to be in control of their own destiny. Like Bill Maher said, "Hey, God, you can't fire me; I quit!"
What's unsettling to those left behind is the lack of answers. We'll never truly know why; never truly know if there's something we might have said or done to prevent the suicide from happening; never know if an angel swept them away, or if they were cast into oblivion.
But I dare say, they found a cure for life.
Some of us have been taught that "Our" lives are not ours to take. It's a mortal sin! It's murder of one's self. "Thou shalt not kill." Hmmm? Numerologists tell us that we have chosen this life - along with its people and circumstances - from which to learn. Therefore, should we decide to end it before its set date of completion, we're doomed to return and start all over - same people, same circumstances. That thought has kept me alive. I do believe there's even laws against taking ones own life. If that's true, it really isn't your life.
We can only speculate what drives a person to their own demise. Even suicide notes explaining why, offer little insight. It's not just a single event scribbled in a note; it's a lifetime of events that push people from the cliff.
For Annie, "The Sun Will Come Out Tomorrow" and that sometimes gets people through the night to face another day. But what if day after day the sun doesn't shine? What if black, ominous clouds follow them throughout their days and only on rare occasion allow the sun to peek through? Is it okay to end their emotional suffering?
I've heard it said that people who choose to take their lives are weak? But are they really? Think about it! How hopeless, how unloved must one feel to face the great unknown; to end life thinking that death will be more than some black hole of oblivion?
Frankly, I don't believe people really want to end life, unless, due to illness, the end is inevitable and long-suffering. Emotionally distraught people just want to end the pain from which they've been unable to find relief.
Some suicides aren't spontaneous acts. The thought has weighed on their minds from the first experienced trauma. When the decision is finally made, it's methodically designed. Subconsciously, for years, they've began to get their house in order. Finally, the time is right. One more disappointment, failure, trauma, stressful situation, etc. and they're ready. Good-bye cruel world.
You laughed with them yesterday. You planned a trip with them for next month. You loved them. How could they do this? Why didn't you see this coming? What ifs race through your mind unceasingly. You feel like you're being punished. But for what crime? Obliviousness?
Some suicides hide their pain well. Even if you were aware of their sufferings, once they have decided to "end it all" there is nothing you can do to stop them, short of sitting with them 24/7 until the phase passes. You might report them, in which case they'd be stigmatized for the rest of their lives, causing even more trauma. Or you can convince them to get the proper help, via drugs and counseling, which aren't always effective and at times compound the problem, especially if they're reluctant to begin with. Yes, we're at a loss, because we're indecisive and fearful of doing something wrong. Plus, we have our own problems and hectic lives. So, we choose to remain uninvolved.
I've known people who have taken their lives. A boy in his teens, who by outwardly appearances had everything going for him, jumped in front of a train; a gay guy, who suffered from depression (most likely caused by the cruelty of others)had threatened and attempted suicide numerous times, was finally successful with booze and pills; an uncle, who put a gun to his head and blew his brains out.
There once was a girl, who, at eight, took a bottle of aspirin. Her stomach was pumped and she survived. But at ten she jumped off a roof. Again she survived. In her teens she became a cutter, actually slitting her wrists once, but only across the street, not down the road. The physical pain was more bearable. She's overdosed, but not enough to cause death. Numerous times she sat in a garage with the motor running, only to have neighbors report vapors seeping through the cracks.
She was a pretty girl, popular, witty, talented, smart; you'd have to wonder why anyone with all those attributes would want to die. Was she overly dramatic? In need of attention? Weak? How did life fail her? Who in life failed her? Or was she overly sensitive to her surroundings?
Sometimes I wonder if people who commit suicide just need to be in control of their own destiny. Like Bill Maher said, "Hey, God, you can't fire me; I quit!"
What's unsettling to those left behind is the lack of answers. We'll never truly know why; never truly know if there's something we might have said or done to prevent the suicide from happening; never know if an angel swept them away, or if they were cast into oblivion.
But I dare say, they found a cure for life.
(I inadvertently deleted someone's comment, because avilo was spamming me with comments. He obviously misinterpreted what I wrote. Anyways, I apologize).
Sunday, August 28, 2011
MLG - Raleigh - Adios from the Blonde
So, the festivities are over and it's been fun, even though the Koreans are taking home more U.S. currency. Strangely, after each MLG, I'm craving Kimchee and Bi Beem Bop - maybe some Chop Chae, too.
I tuned in late again and didn't watch many games - didn't see Idra get eliminated by TriMaster - and by the time I did tune in, the final 8 were: Nada, Puma, Bomber, Coca, DRG, Hero, Huk, and Sjow.
Nada took out Huk in RO7 and Puma in RO8; DRG took out Hero in RO8 and Nada in RO9; Coca took out DRG in RO10, and Hero dropped Sjow in RO7. Bomber was just sitting in the Champion finals bracket waiting to see who he was going to take out.
Yeah, that was confusing to me and if I wasn't confuzzled enough with all the brackets - there was an extended series. I have no idea where that fits in, but I guess Puma knows, because he lost to Nada 4-3.
In the Champion losers bracket, Incontrol actually won two games, beating Drewbie. OMG! Drewbie must feel like crap losing to Incontrol. Don't feel badly Drewbie, Incontrol went on to lose the next match 1-2 to his teammate Machine.
Actually, the only EG players who didn't do too badly were Puma and Demuslim. But if Puma was already knocked out by Nada, how did he come back to be knocked out by Coca 2-0 in the champion bracket? *sighs* I was kinda feeling really dumb at this point. Me - with an IQ of a gazillion trillion million.
DRG wasn't out of it so I got to watch a boring Zerg/Zerg match v Coca. *yawns* If I could have I would have jumped in the middle of the map between the two of 'em with my can of Raid and sprayed them both to their deaths. Blonde exTERMINATOR winner of MLG! :D (That woulda been the bubble caption over my cartoon character's head)
The championship final match was between Coca (Zerg) and Bomber (Terran) and that's when avilo and I started our battle. Dumbass wanted Terran to win and I insisted Zerg should win. Guess he doesn't understand that Blizz will nerf Terran even more than they have with another MLG Terran win. The words went back and forth until I finally QQd and rage quit on him. LOL! I love doing that to him, cuz he laughs out loud and that makes me laugh. Of course it's all in fun. I just love aggravating the Terran to see his angry face and read his "aodfmomfoneldofne." By the way, avilo - I am so not BM, you gagafas!
I sent avilo lotsa :D, because in the first game Coca held off Bomber's bunker rush so well and took the game. But Bomber went on to win the championship. So all you Terrans out there - expect more Terran nerfs. hahahaha
Hope y'all had as much fun as I had. I'm looking forward to the next MLG in - hmmmm...lol sorry, having a blonde moment.
For accurate details (by peepz who aren't confused by brackets)and to get replays go to majorleaguegaming.com (I know there's an http and a www in front of that, but I can't remember how it goes. hehehe
*waves bye Hasta la bye bye y'all
I tuned in late again and didn't watch many games - didn't see Idra get eliminated by TriMaster - and by the time I did tune in, the final 8 were: Nada, Puma, Bomber, Coca, DRG, Hero, Huk, and Sjow.
Nada took out Huk in RO7 and Puma in RO8; DRG took out Hero in RO8 and Nada in RO9; Coca took out DRG in RO10, and Hero dropped Sjow in RO7. Bomber was just sitting in the Champion finals bracket waiting to see who he was going to take out.
Yeah, that was confusing to me and if I wasn't confuzzled enough with all the brackets - there was an extended series. I have no idea where that fits in, but I guess Puma knows, because he lost to Nada 4-3.
In the Champion losers bracket, Incontrol actually won two games, beating Drewbie. OMG! Drewbie must feel like crap losing to Incontrol. Don't feel badly Drewbie, Incontrol went on to lose the next match 1-2 to his teammate Machine.
Actually, the only EG players who didn't do too badly were Puma and Demuslim. But if Puma was already knocked out by Nada, how did he come back to be knocked out by Coca 2-0 in the champion bracket? *sighs* I was kinda feeling really dumb at this point. Me - with an IQ of a gazillion trillion million.
DRG wasn't out of it so I got to watch a boring Zerg/Zerg match v Coca. *yawns* If I could have I would have jumped in the middle of the map between the two of 'em with my can of Raid and sprayed them both to their deaths. Blonde exTERMINATOR winner of MLG! :D (That woulda been the bubble caption over my cartoon character's head)
The championship final match was between Coca (Zerg) and Bomber (Terran) and that's when avilo and I started our battle. Dumbass wanted Terran to win and I insisted Zerg should win. Guess he doesn't understand that Blizz will nerf Terran even more than they have with another MLG Terran win. The words went back and forth until I finally QQd and rage quit on him. LOL! I love doing that to him, cuz he laughs out loud and that makes me laugh. Of course it's all in fun. I just love aggravating the Terran to see his angry face and read his "aodfmomfoneldofne." By the way, avilo - I am so not BM, you gagafas!
I sent avilo lotsa :D, because in the first game Coca held off Bomber's bunker rush so well and took the game. But Bomber went on to win the championship. So all you Terrans out there - expect more Terran nerfs. hahahaha
Hope y'all had as much fun as I had. I'm looking forward to the next MLG in - hmmmm...lol sorry, having a blonde moment.
For accurate details (by peepz who aren't confused by brackets)and to get replays go to majorleaguegaming.com (I know there's an http and a www in front of that, but I can't remember how it goes. hehehe
*waves bye Hasta la bye bye y'all
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